| It's impossible to disappear from You or to ask the darkness to hide me, for Your presence is everywhere, bringing light into my night.— Psalms 139:11   Have you ever tried to walk around your house in the dark? With arms stretched out wide we feel our way around, running into dressers, patting walls with our hands, feeling for the familiar to find our way. It's hard to see where we're going without the light. It's painful to run into things we didn't know were there, it can be uncomfortable to not know where our next step may lead. It's easy to lose our way when our eyes can't see.
I wonder if the same can be true about our wilderness seasons in life. Those times when we feel like we are aimlessly wandering around in the dark, and the divine presence of light feels far out of reach. As we wander, we wonder, where is He? Why isn't He showing up for me here? Why did He allow this to happen? What now?
We all face seasons in our life and our faith journey where the distance between Heaven and earth, Him and us, feels endless.
Sometimes like David in the Psalms we cry out:
How long, Lord? Will You forget me forever? How long will You hide Your face from me? How long must I wrestle with my thoughts and day after day have sorrow in my heart? How long will my enemy triumph over me? — Psalm 13:1-2
The reality of our humanity is that none of us are exempt from the pain and brokenness of this place. We all walk through tragedies and trials, seasons of life where God seems more like a distant elusive entity, rather than a close loving Friend.
Maybe like me, you planned out your life, but it didn't pan out the way you wanted it to.
Maybe the dream you had in mind never became a reality.
Maybe there was a relapse instead of remission.
Maybe there was divorce instead of reconciliation.
Maybe you were healthy but then illness came out of nowhere are you are waiting for healing.
Maybe you want to start a family, and though you've been trying for years, your arms are still empty.
Maybe you deeply desire to be married, and though you've gone on date after date, you are still single.
Maybe you were enjoying a stable, smooth life, but now you're sitting in a season of depression that is dark, ugly, terrifying, and debilitating.
And maybe for the first time ever, you are wrestling with suicidal thoughts that you never thought you would have.
Truth is, sometimes the lights go out in life and we feel left alone in the dark with our pain. So how do we find our way back to the light? How do we take the next step forward when we our eyes can't see? How do we live with the pain?
Friend, I don't have all of the answers, but what I've discovered through my own season of deep pain and grief is that the light is always there, we just have to searching for glimmers of it.
God wants nothing more than to be close to us in our pain. He is sitting right beside us as we weep, He is our listening ear as we vent our frustrations, He is our steady anchor of truth in a sea of confusion, He is faithful, He is good, He is kind, and He will always make a way. There isn't anywhere we can go to escape His loving light.
One of my favorite passages from the Psalms illustrates this so well:
Lord, You know everything there is to know about me. You perceive every movement of my heart and soul, and You understand my every thought before it even enters my mind. You are so intimately aware of me, Lord…. You know every step I will take before my journey even begins. You've gone into my future to prepare the way, and in kindness You follow behind me to spare me from the harm of my past…. Where could I go from Your Spirit? Where could I run and hide from Your face?… Wherever I go, Your hand will guide me; Your strength will empower me. It's impossible to disappear from You or to ask the darkness to hide me, for Your presence is everywhere, bringing light into my night. — Psalm 139:1-11 TPT
Friend, He is "bringing light into your night." Keep holding on. Keep asking Him to help you live with the pain, keep putting one foot in front of the other even when you cannot see where you are going. He is preparing a way and strengthening you along the way. You are not alone. You are loved. Keep going.
In it together, Kayla Written for Devotionals Daily by Kayla Stoecklein, author of Fear Gone Wild. Watch this video interview with Kayla on Good Morning America
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